Ricky, your true color is Black!

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

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Zach left us today. He left and he will never return to our side again.

The friendship that you shared with me will never be forgotten.

The times when we shared jokes.. the times when we shared our thoughts with girls.. the times when we were angry with each other and neither one of us spoke with each other for a couple of weeks until we forgot what we were angry about.. the times when you sided with me when i needed help.. the times when we went to timezone to try out that new punching game.. the time when you invited me to attend your brother's birthday and you keep pestering me to look at your girl cousin..the time when you, marcus, and i went to places just to find a cheap shop to play starcraft.. the times when we walked the football field everyday two times a day.. and the time when I watched you fight the fight that defined who you are today as a brave, courageous, and great friend.. I know you will never back out in a fight..

All of this I will treasure in my memory forever. In my heart you will always be remembered not only as a friend but as a brother I wish I had. You died fighting. For me, you died with honor.. that which only a few of us will have a priviledge to have in death.

The brown handkerchief that you gave me.. it will serve as a remembrance of the great times that we had as close friends in high school. To me, it's worth will be priceless.

May your death find the justice that it deserves.

May you rest in peace.

tsk... = (

RJ

P.S. Damn the shooter.. May he suffer eternal torment as he rot in hell..

Sollicitus

haaay.. nandito ako.. nakaupo.. masakit ang ulo(aling ulo? XD).. pinipilit magtype sa keyboard at nagmamadali dahil gusto ko na matulog.. ang badtrip naman o.. hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. nahahati ang katawan ko sa isang suliraning mahirap malutas. sa kasalukuyan ay nangangalaiti ako sa galit at lungkot. haay nako buhay nga naman talaga. araw araw tinutulak ka hanggang sa mahulog ka at pagka hindi ka tumulak pabalik ay ihuhulog ka talaga nito. at ako? lagi akong nakabagsak sa lupa...

kailangan ko nanaman magdesisyon.. isang mahriap na desisyon.. siguro ganun nalang.. para hindi na lumaki pa..

akala nyo masaya ako? hehe..

rj

Sollicitus

haaay.. nandito ako.. nakaupo.. masakit ang ulo(aling ulo? XD).. pinipilit magtype sa keyboard at nagmamadali dahil gusto ko na matulog.. ang badtrip naman o.. hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. nahahati ang katawan ko sa isang suliraning mahirap malutas. sa kasalukuyan ay nangangalaiti ako sa galit at lungkot. haay nako buhay nga naman talaga. araw araw tinutulak ka hanggang sa mahulog ka at pagka hindi ka tumulak pabalik ay ihuhulog ka talaga nito. at ako? lagi akong nakabagsak sa lupa...

kailangan ko nanaman magdesisyon.. isang mahriap na desisyon.. siguro ganun nalang.. para hindi na lumaki pa..

akala nyo masaya ako? hehe..

rj

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Eye of the Tiger

Risin' up, back on the street Did my time, took my chances Went the distance, now I'm back on my feet Just a man and his will to survive So many times, it happens too fast You change your passion for glory Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past You must fight just to keep them alive Chorus: It's the eye of the tiger, it's the cream of the fight Risin' up to the challenge of our rival And the last known survivor stalks his prey in the night And he's watchin' us all in the eye of the tiger Face to face, out in the heat Hangin' tough, stayin' hungry They stack the odds 'til we take to the street For we kill with the skill to survive chorus Risin' up, straight to the top Have the guts, got the glory Went the distance, now I'm not gonna stop Just a man and his will to survive chorus The eye of the tiger (repeats out)...

JOHN LENNON lyrics - "Imagine"

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Odium

I hate you. You're a bitch. You're a gay whore. You know, I can't wait for you to die. I don't even want to talk to you. Why do I even bother..

You're a bitch dad. An absolute fucking bitch..

I try hard to live up to your expectations and you do what.. you always see that as a failure. You always have no time. You are hard to talk to. Now you don't know me or what I have become. You do not know the life I live now. You are always stuck in the past.. always thinking of me as a weak boy who can achieve nothing. You always think that what you say is perfect and the absolute truth. You don't even give me a chance to explain.

I envy my friends. At least they have a dad who spends time with them. At least they have a dad who they can talk to. At least they have a dad who knows who their son is.

I liked the time when you were in jail. At least I didn't have to listen to one of your fucking speeches.

I am really, really angry at you right now. Damn you to hell..

Cogito Ergo Sum

What is the meaning of life? Why do we live? What is our purpose in this world? Do we even have a purpose? There are so many questions yet the answer lay hidden still. For so long have we been in search and for so long we still are. Now I will try to answer that which I have evaded and so I pray that I can finish it till the end.

I only have been given one life and its end I cannot be sure. But I am sure it is only one and I dare not find out more. So I ask myself "What is the meaning of this life? my life?" This question and the answer it holds seem simple yet it perplexes me still and I think is beyond my comprehension.

I live my life as I see fit and its control I firmly hold. I have my goal and as I grow do embrace it still. Yet what it means to live this life is still a blur to my eye. Like being in a sandstorm in a dessert I cannot even cling to anything that I may start from somewhere. It is like looking for light in an endless cavity ruled by darkness.

I am that I am and it burns still in my eye. For you it may mean nothing yet for me it means everything. No one can be me except only me. I live to be alive and I am alive so that I may live my life as me. And so, the meaning of life is one.

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Why have I been asked to do which I have no damn clue? To write this, yes, I must be true to myself and to you. But the truth of me which you seek differs from what I speak. For you will insist in an endless pek and I will insist in the towers peak.

I am that which is nothing yet you expect everything. I am that which is now gone long before this has been done. And you still insist in an endless peek and I will insist in the towers peak.

I am that which is now dead and now that which cannot tread. I see the world in a dying bed and yet unable to stop the poison lead. And still you insist in an endless peek and I will insist in the towers peak.

And I wonder how thois will end.
For you still insist in an endless peek.
And I will insist in the towers peak.